Strength

What does it mean to be strong? My whole life when people hear my life story and where I've been, they think "strength" (or pity, depending on the person). Not that these events are any sort of badge of honor. I believe things happen to us to prepare us for something.

I had a professor in college once tell me,

"One day you're going to have to prove what you've got."

This has always stuck with me as a sort of foreboding and cautionary statement.

Does being strong only mean being able to take a hit? It doesn't take a man to stand and lose his strength to life's onslaught. If so, I'd rather not be strong for myself or anyone else, if it means peace.

I feel my life is beginning to crumble, just as I'm putting huge pieces together for the first time. Personally, I mean. Professionally, I won't be successful until after law school.

I'm losing my wife, I think. And since I've been fighting for her for a while, I think I probably lost her a while ago.

I suppose more than anything right now, I feel alone.

C

Merlot and Ravioli

I haven't written in a long time, and I'm sure I'll never get those old blog posts moved over here.

You ever meet people that just instantly click with you? And once you have them, you wonder how you ever got along without them?

I hung out with a new friend tonight and she (yes, she) is kinda badass. I'm
Not interested in her romantically, however, she's both beautiful and smart, and a genuine pleasure to be around. I'm also sure large glasses of red wine do something to enhance our perceptions of each other.

Is write more, but I can barely keep my eyes open. More later.

C

Blessings

I got this awesome job at Apple back in May. I ended up not being able to start because of a miscommunication about being done with my degree, and it was just heartbreaking and immensely frustrating.

I went back to work for Seton, albeit in another city and the fact it's not really Seton, but a partner. I've beefing trying to find the blessing in this lately and I think I found it.

I'm not finished with my degree. I think the blessing is that with this job I can finally finish my degree, whereas with Apple, it would have been truly difficult.

I've been thinking a lot about God lately. If this is the case, and there really is a plan, then maybe the book of Jeremiah isn't such a trite fair tale after all.

C

One

I started this and was going to migrate over some old archived stuff from an old blog, but I'm lazy.

This will probably just serve as a forum for me to mostly vent or rant, but perhaps share intimate things as well. Needless to say, if I've given you access to this, I like and trust you. Probably.

I really don't have anything to say, I was just tired of the reminder emails to post "to your new blog"!

More later.


C